What is 'normal'?

In my search for my new 'normal', I have come to realize that even my former 'normal' was not so normal since my thyroid issues had gone undetected for who knows how long. So I'm hoping that my new 'normal' will be a lot better than my former 'normal' was, because honestly, my former 'normal' really sucked.

I think I have mentioned before that many mornings I would wake up and really not want to do anything, no matter if it was a week day or a weekend. I had problems losing weight. My periods were never predictable for more than three or four months at a time. My energy level was never so great either, but I don't think I could really tell because I was taking a good multivitamin which kept me energized throughout the day. But I could never get a good amount of sleep, unless I was sleeping in on the weekend - that could have been work-related stress.

Now, post thyroid surgery, RAI, and on thyroid hormone replacement therapy, where am I? Well, my periods have not stabilized, yet. The weight issue is stable, but I still need to lose a considerable amount of pounds to get down to a healthier weight. Still have bad PMS - a lot more moodier. Energy level is sporadic at best; now when I try to nap, I can't seem to fall asleep most of the time. And the crying, where did that come from? - that is definitely new. And, I seem to have more hair falling off my head than I did before, luckily it is not in clumps. I seem to be less motivated than I was before. It is a sad state of affairs. All I can say is I hope things don't get worse, that this is as low as things can go for me so things can start to get better and I can reach a good, normal balance on everything.

How long will it take? I feel like I need a guarantee that it happens before I go back to work in September. I know, one day at a time, which is not easy when you don't know what day it is sometimes when you wake up each morning. Think positive. Think positive. I can get through this. I will be 'normal' again, and it will be a real 'normal'.